Wow. It's been awhile since I've even looked at these entries. Whether or not they're what I want them to be or say, it's always nice looking at the past. So I guess a big update is in order. I've had the most amazing summer with the most amazing friends. I've seen a lot of awesome places and have done a lot of amazing things. Regardless, it's not about what you do or where you go, but who you enjoy it with and that's the most important part of your time. I have the most amazing boyfriend, the one who keeps me sane, the one who helps me overcome a lot of stress that has seeped through the cracks in this unblemished summer. I don't expect him to do what he does, but he over achieves the super natural and makes me happy at the end of the day. My best friend has been a huge asset to the summer and my life in general. I can tell her anything, and try my hardest to see her outside of work as well.
Work. Well I can honestly say has been the biggest pitfall of my summer. It can sometimes be amazing and sometimes disappointing. On some levels I know I'm the only one who cares about my store, I plan everything out, get everything set up and ready for the day, and hand it off displaying directions very carefully for the next person in charge only to see that they haven't done it the next day. I figure if you're in a position where you find yourself not fostering to what you're supposed to be a part of, you should seek a new profession. I care ten times more than anyone in that store, and what makes me sad is there is no one competing for that store to be "there baby" as it is mine. No one cares.
To keep my sanity, I work at 2 other Journeys. I love working at Journeys, it's not a hard job, and the coworkers are fun. I just wish everyone would at least give a shit about something and take responsibility.
Other than that my life is great, I stay in school year round, I got 2 100's in my summer classes, I'm trying to keep up and finish strong.

Fuck everything I just said.
I think what you said was completely disrespectful.
Further noting that now I know who my true best friends are.
Until proven otherwise :)


Anyways, got a job at Run, Jump-N-Play.
and am having the best time in school and
with close friends and my boyfriend, not seeing
him a lot due to 2 jobs is killing me, but school
will be over soon, and I won't have to worry about
putting together a busy schedule anymore, it will
put itself together.

I don't like people who take the easy way out.

While I still have time to write in an online journal, I might as well savor the moment. My life is more busy and more complete than any person I know, and yet... if you really look at it, my life could fall apart at any moment. I've been working in the same place for a year, and nothing has changed. I keep getting stuck in this irritating corner where I'm "considered management, without the pay or respect." I hate when I get yelled at by my own part-timers, when I shouldn't have to put up with it, but technically, I'm a part-timer myself, so what can I do honestly? I've been noticing a third key is to be announced next week, so maybe this is my break. On the other hand, I have an amazing position lined up at Run Jump & Play to be a birthday party host until I turn 18 to be a front desk manager. Unfortunately, I haven't gotten the call, but hear that I'm the first one to be called. I'm stuck in a dilemma where, if I am the third key to be announced, should I stay with the third key position at the place I've been a year in, or do I go to the brand new job and host until I turn 18? Either way, neither job is for sure so I need not worry until the time comes.
I love my boyfriend. Nothing could get any better, and if it did, I'd be shocked because we're perfect now. I've never felt like this in my entire life, and I am more excited than ever to start a life with him. Every day it's something new, everyday I fall more and more in love. I've got the cutest dog, the most beautiful man, and the life I've always wanted, way earlier than I expected.
Miami is decent. I enjoy the atmosphere I'm in, but notice that my junior year is right around the corner, leaving the uncomfortable notion that I will be going to Oxford soon; a place I know I will dread. I will try to keep my head high, knowing my ability has far exceeded my age, and it will all be over soon. My classes are good, I'm planning on tutoring for some extra money on the side, and hopefully helping someone out. The only thing I can really see my self doing is rolling around on the floor with kids all day and teaching them they're ABC"s. This school shit is just extra, I need to get to teaching, as soon as my degree will allow me.
To sum everything up, my life has completely blown away my fantasy of what I thought it would be. Though the pay checks might be low, and the education process super slow I need to get used to it, because that's how the life of a teacher is. And no matter what, my state of mind is much more important to me than any paycheck I will ever receive. I know just one 6-year-olds smile could change my world, the trick is getting mine to change theirs.